|By People who have Drawn my characters~|
It’s with a heavy heart that I say this, for after months of trying and not being able to do anything I believe I can no longer draw or do anything art related.
I have tried for many weeks, and when I think I have something good someone critiques it so harshly, that I once again am not able to do anything for another few months.
It’s gotten to the point where art is a chore. And I can’t take a break because my brother is expecting that comic done by the end of August. So that is completely out of the question.
I believe that might be the source of my problems sadly, it’s too much for me. I took on more then I could handle. My brother can spend hours at a time working on it, which is a good thing if that’s what you want. But me, I can’t. I don’t have the patience for it. I can’t sit down and work over 12 hours on a page. Added with that I clearly don’t have the skill or the will to be able to work on it, I fear that in a way it has hurt me completely.
I tried stopping for a short time to see if that would help, but all that happened was that I was bugged about it, and so the problem never truly went away. I tired playing games to get my motivation back, hoping if I was motivated I could do the pages, but no that didn’t even work.
I even went back to WoW as a last ditch effort to try and re-motivate me, but all that did was reignited the obsession I had with it 1 year go.
I tried a few months ago to start up my Ocarina playing, but that was short lived seeing as how I was getting nasty comments about how bad I was.
And so as I said before I believe in completely washed up. It’s clear as day that I can’t draw nor color.
so it saddens me that I must give up on saving what little motivation I have left. I know it must be there, but its in a place I cant reach.
is I ever get to finish this comic of my brothers, I am giving up, walking out the door. Ive come to terms with this, and im accepting it, so I hope you all understand.